Sunday, March 20, 2011

Being A Mom Stresses Me Out!

I worry too much...but only about certain things.  I realized today that I am -- well -- I'm just gonna come right out and say it -- overprotective!  Charles told me yesterday that one of the boys in the cove was going to teach Zachary how to ride a rip-stick.  I seriously think my heart skipped a beat.  I blame it on my job.  Is that a good excuse?  I have seen some pretty bad things.  The smallest thing gone wrong can injure you for life.  This is definitely a case of "a little knowledge is a dangerous thing"!  Aaaaagh!  Actually, it is quite frustrating.  I'm trying to get better - really I am.  There are some things I do not bend on tho.  I am and forever will be a helmet nazi.  I don't care what you are riding on, if it has wheels on it, you'd BETTER be wearing your helmet.  That is non-negotionable.  I'd also prefer to you to be wearing wrist guards and knee and elbow pads, but you know... I'm also fanatical about knowing who they are with and where they are going.  I want to be able to put my hands on them at all times.  We all know it, but there are crazy people out there.  It is a sad state of affairs when you have to remind even the older ones about being careful when they go to the bathroom at Chik-fil-A!  I know they will grow up and this too shall pass, but we live in the end times...this isn't Mayberry (but it would be cool if it was!)  :-)

Even when they spend the night out...a TINY part of me is a little anxious.  It isn't that I am worried about them...I know they are in excellent care.  I don't know --  I just like having all my chicks under the same roof.  I'll be a basket case when they go to college (yes - that is already being talked about!)  Maybe it's just my job to worry.  Now don't misunderstand...I'm not biting my nails or wringing my's not like that.  It's the "mom" in me.  I see lots of parents who frankly appear to not really give a flying flip about what their kids do - whether it's wearing a helmet or jumping in the car with a group of friends to go across state lines to go to a party.  To which I wonder, "why are you a parent?"  Well, I could guess, but that is a whole different blog!

I suppose as a mom you start to "worry" that moment your heart starts beating outside your body.  When you look into that little face and promise them you will always love and protect them.  As they age, the things you "worry" about change too.  When they are tiny you fret over every little cough...then when they start to eat nothing but mac and cheese you "worry" they aren't getting the nutrition they need...then they start school and you "worry" about social skills...then they get more independent and you "worry" -- well, you get the idea.  It is a never ending cycle!  Fortunately, I know each of my kids rests in God's hands.  He had loaned them to me to guide them and teach them and for that I am very honored.  He knows their plans and nothing comes a surprise.  To me?  YES!  To Him?  NO!  That is a huge load off me....but still....I'm going to do my best to steer them in the right direction!  Now where is the bubble wrap????

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Stumbling Blocks

I have a huge one right now.....can't really "blog" that often because our home computer bit the dust.  It's probably for the best anyway (for me - not the computer!)  I have plenty I could ramble about, but they are really more "rants" than actual blogging.  That's okay tho.  In short, spring break has been amazing, and just makes me want summer to get here even faster!  C'mon summer!  :-)

Monday, March 7, 2011

It's Monday ~ But Friday's Comin'!!!

Yes it is!  Just a few more days!!  (I know...It's supposed to be "It's Friday, but Sunday's Comin'"!)  Friday is the start of spring break and not a moment too soon!  I am so ready...ready for sleeping in...catching a movie...going to the library...spending some alone time with the hubby...  Yep, you heard read right - Charles and I are getting away for a few days for some MUCH NEEDED time (just a few days!) to ourselves.  While I am looking forward to all the aformentioned activities, I am already stressing out about them too.  There's the the kids have the right stuff?  Do WE have the right stuff?  Are all the details worked out?  Will anything happen while we are gone?  The kiddos are going to be with my mom part of the time and with Charles' mom part of the time.  The boys might actually go out of town with her until Thursday, but they haven't made their final decision yet.  I do love that we can all get out and go and have an amazing time, but I am already looking forward to Tuesday and having my chicks under one roof.  When we are scattered about, I panic just a little when my cell phone rings.  I always fear that something might happen while I am away and vice-versa.  Aaaaagh! I don't know what I will do when they go to college.  Zachary is already planning to be 5 hours away.  (Chest pains starting...breathe in - breathe out!)  I can't dwell on that just yet!  I need to stop - breathe - and remember Who is in control of the situation.  I have to do that ALOT!  :-)

So anyway....did you read the status I posted last Thursday?  It was "Hush ~ God is in it..."  I heard that on the way home from work and seemed so appropriate for so many people I know who are going through some devastating situations right now.  It is sometimes hard to remember that God is in the middle of every circumstance - good or bad.  Something bad happens and we start to stress out like the person who goes nuts thinking they have lost their glasses when they have been on top of their head the whole time.  Psalm 46:10.  You know the verse.  "Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."

For those of you who listen to K-Love...remember how they had their listeners pick a "word" for 2011?  The word I chose was "see".  I have learned that it has a two-fold meaning.  I need to learn to stop ("hush") and "see" that God is in EVERY detail of my day.  When I am having a bad day, He is still in the midst of it.  When I am having a good day, He is still right there.  I have to choose to SEE what He is teaching me or SEE where He is leading me.  You know something?  That is not always an easy task!  Hindsight is 20/20!  The flip side to this is that I need to live my life so that others can SEE Who lives inside of me.  Can they SEE Jesus in my words and in my actions?  Can my kids SEE Him?  I didn't realize until just recently just how powerful that word really is.  Yeah, it really is. 

So - all that being said, go forth and prepare for all your spring break activities!  I think everyone is very much ready for a well-deserved vaca!  Have a great week!  :-)

Thursday, March 3, 2011

One More Week!

Actually, only four more days til spring break!  I'm so excited!  Just a taste of summer to come....ahhh bliss!  And of course there is the no-dealing-with-lunches-or-backpacks that goes along with it.  I am so ready for it.  Well - is anyone ever NOT ready for it?  I mean really, c'mon!

So let's see....what's been going on in our house these days.  Josh's play was last weekend.  Well, the rehearsals have consumed our lives for the last 6 weeks, but it all culminated to "production week" last week.  EVERY night rehearsal from 6-9.  That - my a killer.  It's all good though.  You know what you are getting into when you agree to let them be in it, so it is no surprise - it just makes for a really long week.  My kids are troopers...they enjoy what they do and do it with no complaints.  Even when they miss a few hours of sleep!  :-)  Zachary was there too.  He did lights and discovered he LOVES that!  My kids are pretty awesome.  Don't know if I have mentioned that lately, but they really are ~ even if they are mine!  They are GOOD kids -- you know?  The kind that make you proud....that you actually enjoy having around.  They are making good choices and are starting to make very insightful observations about others.  They know what sets them apart from the rest of the world and are very much okay with that....I just pray it stays that way!  You have to cover them in prayer parents!  :-)

So fresh off the heels of last weekend came Sarah's "Top Banana" week at school.  Daddy put together a fabulous (as always) princess poster for her...made her favorite oatmeal-chocolate-chip cookies for snack...and read "How I Became A Pirate" to her class - eye patch, pirate hat and all!  Isn't he a great dad?  Yeah, I think so!  I read to class one day, took Bernie up as a "show-and-tell", made a snack of a few of her favorite fruits...even Josh and Zachary each took one day and read to her class!  I also managed to have "Aunt Tammy" come read too!  I personally think she had a great week.  We made sure she had something special to look forward to every day.  She was very happy, so that really is all that matters!

So, although I had several days off, I was never home and am so far behind on -- well -- everything!  Laundry is an ongoing project at my house, so I am NEVER really caught up.  I do need to clean tho.  But you now what?  I have (ssshhhh!) NO PLANS this weekend...and it is supposed to rain Saturday (which really makes me happy!)...and everyone will be home...which means I have lots of help around the house.  I'm thinking we all take a nap and spend the afternoon cleaning...hehe.  Thinking I will bribe them with baked spaghetti and brownies for supper!