Friday, January 28, 2011


No - I don't mean "word" as in "Yo, Yo..."  I mean "word" as in I have been thinking about my "word" for 2011.  If you listen to KLOVE, you know what I am talking about.  You are supposed to think of a word to be your "theme" for the year.  One dj has the word "clear"....another one is using "distinct".  I LOVE those words!  Makes me wish I could have thought of them!  That's okay tho....I am deciding between 2.  You are supposed to decide by the end of January, so I guess I only have a few days left - guess I need to crack down!

So anyway, today was like a breath of fresh air.  The sun and warmer temps were glorious!  I am however paying for it now - I can't breathe out of my nose, but it was well worth it!  Ava had ballet - had lunch with a friend - I ran a couple of errands - Target being one of them.  Have I mentioned how I LOVE Target?  Seriously, I think they must have some sort of mind altering drug that flows from the vents.  It doesn't matter how many cars are in the parking lot, as soon as you walk in, it is like you are the only person in the store.  Time comes to a screeching mind suddenly becomes clear....birds sing and woodland creatures eat out of my hand.  Okay - well - maybe not the last part, but it wouldn't surprise me - haha!  Everything looks so different in Target.  I may have seen it a million times elsewhere, but when I see it in Target, it is as if I am seeing it for the first time.  What is up with that? Right now, it is my favorite place to kill time.  If it had a beach, I would never leave!

My ADD must be kicking in because I can't stay on one track!  I mentioned I have been reading "Choosing To SEE" by Mary Beth Chapman.  Have any of you read it?  It is an incredibly powerful book.  I read the first chapter and was afraid to pick it back up.  As a mom, it was just too close to home for me (if you don't know, in May 2008, her then 5 year-old daughter Maria was accidentally run over by her older brother and was killed.)  I think it was because it sounded like Maria was a perfect combination of my two girls.  She liked to "pinky-promise" like Ava, and she loved it when her whole family was together - just like Sara.  After a couple of days I realized that Satan was trying to use that against me.  He knew that book would be a blessing to me and would try any means possible to keep me from it.  So, I picked it up again and hardly been able to put it down.  The Chapman's are an amazing family.  Their faith is phenomenal.  God has spoken to them and through them in ways you would not believe.  I have so enjoyed that book because Mary Beth has made herself so transparent.  You just have to read it for yourself - I might even read it again!

Well, besides work, shuttling to play practice, laundry, grocery shopping, keeping Ava from destroying something or torturing the dog, laundry, meal planning, balancing life (unsuccessfully usually), LAUNDRY (in case I haven't mentioned it already)....that pretty much sums up my week!  If you have a "word" for 2011, please feel free the mention it - I'd love to know!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011


I just started reading "Choosing To See" by Mary Beth Chapman.  The prologue was written by Beth Moore, and in the closing paragraph were these words (bear in mind she is referring to the tragic death of Steven Curtis and Mary Beth Chapman's 5 year-old daughter Maria in May 2008):

"An unbelieving onlooker could reason that, to have a God who cared enough to orchestrate something like the timing of that dream [a dream she had about Mary Beth and Maria, which unbeknownst to her was actually an answer to prayer for Mary Beth], we'd have a God who'd never let such a tragedy happen to start with.  These are places where God exercises His sovereign right to remain a mystery.  We cannot fathom the intricacies of the divine plan.  But make no mistake, when we are in the driest desert, we can receive the manna to make it all the way to the other side where trees bud again and children laugh.  God sometimes delivers us from evils we never see.  Other times He parts raging oceans before our very eyes.  Still other times He says, 'When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you....Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west' (Isa. 43:2,5)"

In light of my previous blog (in case you are reading this on facebook and have no idea what I am talking about, click here to go to my blog), I really thought this was too "golden" not to post.  As usual, Beth Moore so eloquently stated the point I was trying to get across - that God can exercise "His sovereign right to remain a mystery".  (Sigh) ---- life gets harder as we get older (in some aspects!)  :-)

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Something That Made Me Go Hmmmmm....

So, one day last week I was listening to KLOVE and the were doing the daily news stories.  They started off talking about the tragic shooting in Arizona last weekend and  the death of the nine-year old girl.  (BTW - wasn't she BEAUTIFUL??)  Anyway, the story immediately following was about the year anniversary of the earthquake in Haiti and how an infant who had survived 4 days in the rubble without food and water was able to meet her rescuers.  The baby's mom was quoted as saying that "God must have a something very special planned" for her baby.  That really kind of stung me.  I mean, I know it wasn't intended to sound this way, but to hear that on the heels of the story of the tragic shooting, it was almost as if this baby was saved because he/she was more special than the nine-year old who was callously gunned down.  Obviously I know that isn't true, but imagine what that would sound like to a non-believer, or even to this little girl's parents?  

Yet, how many times have we used that phrase in reference to someone else who had a brush with death?  I know I have used it - or thought it at least.  If you really think about it though, it isn't really true.  We ALL have special plans for our lives - given to us by God Himself.  The God I serve is not surprised by what happens here on earth.  He isn't up there scratching His head or wringing His hands wondering what He's going to do with all these rebel children!  :-)  That - my friends - is a huge comfort to know!

When Sarah was born, on her birth announcement, one of the verses we had printed was Psalm 139:16, "Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began."  He knows it all....our beginning...our end...and it isn't our place to try to figure it out.  I mean, you can try, but you really won't be able to.  Trying to figure out the "how's" or "why's" things happen to us or in our world can consume us or even make us bitter if we let them.  Our purpose is spelled out in vs. 14 of Psalm 139.  "I will praise You because I have been remarkably and wonderfully made."  THAT is our the midst of all the tragedy surrounding us, it is our place  to praise Him.  Even on the days you don't feel like, JUST DO IT!  It will change your whole outlook..I promise!  :-)

Thursday, January 6, 2011


I mean really?  We are already 6 days into 2011....and I am still recovering from that blur we called the holidays!  It was fun and all, but I am more than ready to assume our normal chaos.  The kids were (for the most part) ready to go back to school and Ava is bouncing off the walls to go back to her ballet classes!  The break was fun - restful - yet I still did not do some most of the things I wanted.  :-(  I had intended on doing the Happy Birthday Jesus cake, but due to unexpected illness by three of the 6 family members (myself included) - it just did not happen.  It's a great idea though, so I am hoping to do it at just can't be a "Happy Birthday" cake.  (Did you get to try it Judith??)  We partied 3 nights in a row...the kids had a blast - well we all did!!  It's fun to have people over to our house....stresses me out to get ready for it, but it is still fun!

Anyway, decorations are down - much to the dismay of one very upset four year old.  The night Charles started taking down the trees, Sarah exclaimed "Daddy, how can you do this to us?  Santa will be so disappointed!"  That girl is a hoot.  Her latest thing is she is telling everyone that we (as in "she and I") are going out of town and never coming back.  Yeah -- like that statement didn't provoke phone calls from teachers at school.  Thank goodness they are all our friends!  Hearing her repeat things these days is like playing the game "Rumor".  Have you ever played it?  You have a room full of people and one person whispers something to another and so on and so on until the last person in the room repeats what was told to them - which is usually some whacked out statement making no sense.  Well, that is every day life with Sarah....minus the room full of people.  She was also telling Zachary and Josh that we actually went to visit the "Fresh Beat" house.  (FYI...."Fresh Beat Band" is a show that comes on Nickelodeon that the girls love.  It is about 4 teenagers that live in the house and they all play musical instruments and dance, etc.  I know, I know, there is the whole 'where are the parents' thing, but that is just the way it is!)  So anyway, either she is dreaming some crazy dreams or I need to get her ears checked!  Until then, I'm just going to be extremely careful what I say! 

So anyway, I guess I will gear up for "White Out 2011" -- the weather service says we are supposed to get 5-8 inches of snow here in Memphis - which means I need to get to the store!  I got the bread but I need some milk!!! Oh - and the boys need some snow shoes!!